Spring

So, we’re officially in the spring of things. Ha. Spring is a really great time, it’s the end of school, flowers start to bloom, and the temperature is just warm enough. I’m really excited about it being spring, here’s a long winded explanation why.

I never made an official New Year’s resolution. I meant to, and if I’m being honest I probably should have. I even started to make a post about all the resolutions I was going to make because if I don’t write something down, I don’t hold myself accountable for anything. But I never finished the post and I never told anyone about my New Year’s resolutions, so they’ve just kind of gone to shit.

I also didn’t give anything up for lent. I don’t always give something up, but in the past when I have it has always been something superficial and pointless like soda, or chocolate. Also, I feel like Lent normally sneaks up on me and I don’t have time to think about what to give up. That wasn’t the case this year. I knew it was coming, but I still didn’t think of anything to give up. I thought about things I could give up, but I struggled. Sure, I could’ve given up something like soda again, but that seemed too easy. I feel like if you give something up it should teach you something about the struggles Jesus had when he came face to face with the temptations of the devil. The season of lent should do something to strengthen your relationship with God, and I don’t think giving up soda would really allow me to reflect on that. But on the other hand, I was too stubborn to follow through with giving up something that would allow for self-reflection. I thought about giving up social media, or not having my phone out during meals. But those seemed kind of hard, so I just didn’t give anything up.

But spring started yesterday. It’s a whole new season and I’m in the mood for a bit of change. Maybe it is a bit unconventional to have a theme for a season, but I think it’s what I need right now. The idea is that I am going to go about this season with the theme in mind and then I’m going to get so used to the theme that it’s going to become a theme that is prominent in my life.

The theme of spring is SELF-LOVE.

I feel like self-love is something I’m always preaching about but never holding myself accountable for. But here I am, putting it into words, putting it online and making a claim to actually implement it. It is too easy to be mad at yourself and I’m guilty of just being a bully to me, but I want to find out how great I am. I want to do things for me and I want to be serious about improving myself and getting to know myself. And that’s what I think self-love is all about. It’s giving yourself the respect you inherently deserve.

The way I see it, the first step towards self-love is getting to know yourself. Spend some time by yourself and reflect on what you want, what you like, who you are, who you were and who you want to be. Draw, write, sing, run, walk, cook, eat, or whatever. Find something that causes you to find yourself.

If you’re anything like me, you might have a problem with putting yourself down. I think sometimes I come off more confident than I actually am, but it’s honestly just as show. I constantly hear that little devil in my head saying things about my outward appearance, or my abilities, or about my intelligence. But part of this spring of self-love is when I hear that voice I’m going to change it. I’m going to change the voice to say something positive instead of something that’s going to put me down.

Another part of self-love is just being less angry, and loving others better. Honestly, I am pretty quick to judge, I also am impatient and I tend to have a sort temper. I think I will love myself best when I am not so frustrated with others. This will most likely be the hardest part in the season of self-love, but I never said it would be easy. As much as I would like to, I can’t control others. However, I can control how they affect me.

In this, the spring of self-love, I hope to write more, workout more, and really improve myself. If you also have a craving for change I invite you to MY season of spring. I invite you to change your mindset and fall in love with the wonderful person you are.

Cheers to spring!

~Probably Cliché.

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